No Hay Banda

The fights, those nights
I tried to pretend it don't hurt
The way, I prayed
Someday that you would love me
Really, completely
Just how I wanted it to be
But no, so wrong
Can't believe I stayed with you so long

You hit, you spit, you split, ever-y bit of me, yeah
You stole, you broke, you're cold
You're such a joke to me, yeah

For every last bruise you gave me
For every time I sat in tears
For the million ways you hurt me
I just wanna tell you this
You broke my world, made me strong
Thank you
Messed up my dreams, made me strong
Thank you

My head, near dead
Just the way you wanted it
My soul, stone cold
Cos I was under you're control
So young, so dumb
Knew just how to make me succumb
But I un-derstand
To make yourself feel like a man

You hit, you spit, you split, ever-y bit of me, yeah
You stole, you broke, you're cold
You're such a joke to me, yeah

For every last bruise you gave me
For every time I sat in tears
For the million ways you hurt me
I just wanna tell you this
You broke my world, made me strong
Thank you
Messed up my dreams, made me strong
Thank you

You coulda had it all babe
It coulda been so right
I woulda given you everything
Morning through night
Yeah, you taught me some lessons
Those are my blessings
That won't happen again
Thank you

Ja que ninguem le isso mesmo eu vou me afogar aqui. Essa musica eu ouvi hoje pela primeira vez e achei perfeita para as coisas que eu estou sentindo (aquelas em negrito) e resolvi desabafar. Eu nao quero voltar por que tenho medo, por que sei o que vai acontecer e por que nao tenho certeza de estar preparada. Mas uma coisa e verdade, todo filho da puta que te faz sofrer no fim te faz mais forte do que voce era antes. Entao muito obrigada por que eu posso estar me sentindo um lixo, mas no fim eu estou muito mais forte e pronta pra um milhao de outras.